Today was one of those days. Growing older and living (mostly) alone I often look back on my life and the vision is not always what I wish it to be.
I cleaned house for my daughter today. I enjoy that and she pays me well but I do it while she is at work and the grandchildren are in daycare so the house is empty.
While I clean my mind is free to wander As I cleaned my grandson’s room I remembered my own children and the way their rooms looked and smelled. I remembered how when the girls were very young I would watch them as they slept and how they looked like little angels. I would often feel bad because during the day I had lost my temper over things that I now know are really unimportant. I would see their sweet little faces relaxed in slumber and feel the time I had with them rushing, rushing away!! I wanted to stop time, to rewind and get a chance to go back and do things better, more lovingly!
If only I had worried less about whether they tramped mud in on their shoes, or whether they goofed off at bedtime so as to delay the time for lights out and had instead spent more time playing Candyland and lying in the grass watching the clouds with them or catching lightning bugs in a jar on a hot summer night.
I found this video today. Please watch it and then ask yourself if you’ve hugged someone you love recently.